My loves

To my olive and little man,

It's been months since I've written. It feels like days blend sometimes and things like dishes and laundry get shoved to another day just for me to spend those few extra moments with you. Lately, I feel like you're growing and things I long wished have come and I look back on the days before with a tear in my eye because although we wish them to come, we never realize what we had.

Little man
   We have accomplished taking away the bottle and you are for the most part an all night sleeper. You eat like a champ and could probably some day eat us out of house and home but that's okay :)
I watch you every day play with your sister, run and hide from her, and overall just love her despite that fact that she can get rowdy. You are my buddy. You bring me books to read, Legos to take apart, and blankets to snuggle you with. You love to be held close and love when i whisper sweet little love secrets in your ear and I love it. I truly love and soak in all you have to offer. I miss our early morning car rides when you couldn't sleep. I miss having you lay on me as you drink a bottle. I miss just the baby moments that are  now memories. You are my sweet summer rain that comes when most needed. You refresh me and bring me back to earth when the world gets complicated. May you always be my sweet boy who wants to climb on me and kiss me because I'll always happily oblige.

My olive
   You are my wildfire. You love independence and are happy all the time. Lately, you've taken it upon yourself to switch from your crib to your big girl bed. I'm so proud of you. It's the moments when we let you be that you grow up and decide when you're ready on your own terms. The other nighti opened the day and just gazed at your beauty. I looked at the empty crib and cried. I know that you're growing up it wasn't until I saw the empty crib that it hit me. Your not the tiny baby anymore. I can close my eyes and still see me kneeling by your crib, rubbing your back as you tried to sleep.i can see me leaning in to kiss your sleepy eyes and you laughing because you can see me getting closer. What if those days are no more? What if I can no longer lean in and kiss your little face? I know this had to come and I welcomed it but I would be lying if I didn't say I miss those days with such passion. I hope you always remember that you're my baby no matter how old you are. Remember that you can run into my arms and I will gladly keep you there. I love our time together while your baba naps. I love that you still snuggle with me and kiss me and just make me feel like you need me. I love you my love and I will forever be your best friend. I hope your still tell me "tauntie, you're my best friend". You are so smart and may you never forget that

To both of you,
You are my world. May you never forget it. You make my world a perfect place and I love  you to the moon and back.