My loves

To my olive and little man,

It's been months since I've written. It feels like days blend sometimes and things like dishes and laundry get shoved to another day just for me to spend those few extra moments with you. Lately, I feel like you're growing and things I long wished have come and I look back on the days before with a tear in my eye because although we wish them to come, we never realize what we had.

Little man
   We have accomplished taking away the bottle and you are for the most part an all night sleeper. You eat like a champ and could probably some day eat us out of house and home but that's okay :)
I watch you every day play with your sister, run and hide from her, and overall just love her despite that fact that she can get rowdy. You are my buddy. You bring me books to read, Legos to take apart, and blankets to snuggle you with. You love to be held close and love when i whisper sweet little love secrets in your ear and I love it. I truly love and soak in all you have to offer. I miss our early morning car rides when you couldn't sleep. I miss having you lay on me as you drink a bottle. I miss just the baby moments that are  now memories. You are my sweet summer rain that comes when most needed. You refresh me and bring me back to earth when the world gets complicated. May you always be my sweet boy who wants to climb on me and kiss me because I'll always happily oblige.

My olive
   You are my wildfire. You love independence and are happy all the time. Lately, you've taken it upon yourself to switch from your crib to your big girl bed. I'm so proud of you. It's the moments when we let you be that you grow up and decide when you're ready on your own terms. The other nighti opened the day and just gazed at your beauty. I looked at the empty crib and cried. I know that you're growing up it wasn't until I saw the empty crib that it hit me. Your not the tiny baby anymore. I can close my eyes and still see me kneeling by your crib, rubbing your back as you tried to sleep.i can see me leaning in to kiss your sleepy eyes and you laughing because you can see me getting closer. What if those days are no more? What if I can no longer lean in and kiss your little face? I know this had to come and I welcomed it but I would be lying if I didn't say I miss those days with such passion. I hope you always remember that you're my baby no matter how old you are. Remember that you can run into my arms and I will gladly keep you there. I love our time together while your baba naps. I love that you still snuggle with me and kiss me and just make me feel like you need me. I love you my love and I will forever be your best friend. I hope your still tell me "tauntie, you're my best friend". You are so smart and may you never forget that

To both of you,
You are my world. May you never forget it. You make my world a perfect place and I love  you to the moon and back.

How time flies

It is hard to believe how fast time flies:
Olivia, you are already a two year old and full of that adventurous spirit. These days, you sport a bruised nose and two scraped knees...being a toddler is what you do best! You love watching Doc McStuffins and have become quite the little doctor yourself. You love your little brother and especially even more now that he is walking. You have decided sharing with your baba is fun although you do have your selfish moments.

Paul, well this week started with you taking walking as a full time activity (both you and your sister walked before your fist birthday). I can not even believe that your first birthday is right around the corner and you are showing the ambition and craziness of a one year old. Before we know it, you will be just like your sister and full of signs that you're an active little person. You still have trouble at night but that doesn't stop you from being a super adorable little man. You love playing with your sister's toys and you especially love opening her door in the morning so as to be the first to greet her.

The truth is, you both are perfect and I wouldn't trade the hard or easy days/nights for the world. I love you both and I hope you always know that.

Love, Tauntie

Happy 8 months baby boy

With all of the days chaos I let your very important day go by unnoticed. Baby boy you turned 8 months old yesterday 4/26 and I treated it like any other day. In fact, it is not like any other day. The 26th of each month is a reminder of your special day. A day in August that we first got to meet you face to face. As you near your first birthday my heart breaks a little that my baby is growing up. You are so loveable and happy. Your smile is so infectious and those cheeks…..Oh my gosh, those cheeks.  You roll over now with such ease, you army crawl yourself over to all your sisters toys (much to her dislike) and you love to stand up and bounce around. You love your sister and thankfully she is warming up to you. Recently you both have decided that bath time together is much more fun than apart.  You both are so cute sitting in the bathtub while daddy tries his hardest to wash you both between laughter and playing.   Happy 8 month birthday my little Paul Maximus. You make my heart skip a beat every time I see you smile. Love, mommy

There's these moments

There's these moments that hold a special place in my heart that can/will never be moved. Such as the first time I saw my little man, the first time Olivia saw the Disneyland Christmas parade, the first time it snowed( at Disneyland) when I was holding Olivia and she just smiled and hugged me, the first time I rocked my Paul to sleep, the first time I saw Olivia give her brother a bath, the look of Olivia in boots, a diaper, and sunglasses as she was ready to go out and play.These and so many more memories will fill my heart. So here is to lots of great memories and a lifetime more to come


Love, auntie

oh boy

oh little boy, why oh why do you refuse to sleep?

love, your tired family

Little Boy

Little Boy,

These past 7 months have been an adventure. Never could I have imagined loving another little person as much as I loved your sister. Amazingly, God makes our hearts big enough to love over and over again. I fell in love with you the first time I saw your little heart beat on the ultrasound but months later, this is a new kind of love.

I love your smile and your laugh, especially when you see your sister do something so silly. I love your chubby baby cheeks and baby toes.  I love that little place in your baby neck that smells just like a newborn. I love the way your head fits on my shoulder when you are tired. I love the way you grab your toes, I love you , I love you, I love you.

Although sleepless nights have plagued us since the beginning and through tired eyes we have stayed up way past everyone else’s bedtime, I would do it all over again and again.  You are the perfect addition to our little family.  Thank you for your patience as I try to parent two little people with such different personalities, thank you for your forgiveness as I try to remember this stage in babyhood, and thank you for letting me love you so much!

love, Mommy